Fabulous brutally truthful piece, Leonardo. Iam in the decade north of where you are, and you are spot on.

I particularly like this paragraph:

"The manifestations of time passage are truly melodramatic. We cannot anticipate things in the future, and all attempts to control it are doomed to fail. Life will drag you down to whatever hole it wants".

The dreams you mentioned are clearly several of the antidotes to becoming dependent and "irrelevant" in those golden years.